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Bismillah.
Life offers me many choices, which sometimes i thought i could
have chosen better options.
Anyhow, i learnt along the way not to regret on my
decisions. I used to always affirm myself before deciding on any matters
especially big ones.
I cried the first time i saw on the screen i got accepted
into uia and i dont appreciate it at that time mainly because i was applying
for overseas unis. Some relatives even coaxed me to register at matriculation
centre and take up on biological science course and lead a path to become a
medical doctor. I recalled Abe Joe talking with me in a dismal tone over the
phone after he got to know i scored a B for my biology paper. He is a surgeon
himself and only later on i realised he wanted me to be a doctor. But, i’ve
chosen another path for myself even before i completed my SPM. I'm sorry :(
At secondary school, i thought it looked cool for adults
because they have more serious discussions and they have bills to pay. Ridiculous.
Being and adult myself, i tell you paying bills are not cool or awesome at all
haha. Serious discussions are sometimes good and other times give you headache
and look at how I envy my small students for them not having any problems to
think of. Living so freely and lively. Nonetheless, this doesnt mean we should
not enjoy living as adults because we should appreciate and see the beauty in
everything. That’s how you’ll enjoy life much better.
When i was a student
at uni, i only think about my grades, studies, quizzes, exams and those things.
I never thought about earning money because i have that education loan. Many friends were
asking, why dont i got myself a scholarship and others dont believe i was
loaning from ptptn. Sometimes, i just smile. It turned out that i had terrible
experience with scholarships from degree to masters study. Maybe, it is just
not fated for me. I wrote about this once before.
Now, im earning myself a salary every month on a job that i
am not really into. Or, i liked it but not for a profession.
Most of the times, i reflected on myself and i choose to say
positive words, positive things and smile. But, when i dont like something or
someone, i just cant hide it. I believed it is shown all over my face. My bad.
Now, i actually should be doing something else, but just
wanna pen down something here. I cant believe i have been writing for some
years now and i hope i will still.
