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Fastaqim

anispauzi Tuesday, September 26, 2017

Jamaah is like you pray in jamaah and you will get more reward from Allah (27 times) compared if you pray alone.

That was exactly my answer when my naqibah asked what do we know about jamaah in a secluded surau at Mahallah Zainab Jahsy Block C.

Little did I know from that moment onwards, that single word will change my life.

5 years later.

I graduated from IIUM not only as an alumni but also the member of a jamaah. I wasnt fluent in this thingy, could be because i wasnt from an islamic school and had zero knowledge about this at first.

Jamaah? It means congregational prayer.

Now, a jamaah has a huge contribution in shaping my version now. Alhamdulillah. I was in debt to my jamaah for showing me the way.

Although it is sad now seeing my seniors @ ustaz ustazah whom delivered taujihat to us once had chosen another, i pray that Allah will guide us until we breathe our final.

When i was in campus, many speakers came and unanimously said that the numbers will decrease especially after graduation.

Work and marriage has been one of the main contributing factors unfortunately. Astaghfirullah.

The single anis is praying for the future married anis, may Allah affirm her steadfastness to jamaah and help her with His bounties to the end.

Allahummarzuqna istiqamah. Aamin.

Surah al Waqi'ah

anispauzi Friday, September 22, 2017

Bismillah.

Masa Tingkatan 5, ada sekumpulan kakak alumni datang bagi motivasi sikit. Lupa semuanya kecuali satu benda, ada seorang kakak ni kata surah al waqi'ah ni penting diamalkan setiap malam. Sesiapa baca, tidak akan menjadi papa. Pendek kata, murah rezeki.

Hadis nabi ada menyatakan tiga surah yang afdhal dibaca setiap malam sebelum tidur iaitu surah al mulk, as sajadah dan al waqiah.

Mulai hari tu, memang berazam untuk tak tinggal baca surah ni setiap malam selain dari surah al mulk sebab memang sebelum light off, wajib baca al mulk.

Tapi, ada satu masalah iaitu kemungkinan untuk tak dan nak baca, sebab masa light off yang hanya berjarak dalam 30 minit dari prep malam dan supper.

Jadi, saya yang berusia 17 tahun masa tu, rangka satu strategi yang sangat efektif sampai umur sekarang ni. Iaitu hafal surah al waqiah. Jadi, dah takde masalah bila light off, sebab surah dah ada dalam kepala. Boleh baca atas katil sebelum tidur.

Sejak dari itu juga mula membaca surah ni dalam solat Maghrib @ Isyak @ baca separuh-separuh dalam kedua-dua solat jika ada kesempatan.

Surah ni antara yang paling kuat melekat di kepala, mungkin asbab hafal masa remaja. As Sajdah pulak, dah hafal banyak kali masa kat uia, tapi kalau nak tasmi' sekarang ni, memang tak lancar lagi. Astaghfirullah.

Betullah kata pepatah ni,

Menghafal di usia muda ibarat menulis di atas batu, menghafal di usia tua ibarat menulis di atas air.

Pernah sekali, bosan kat rumah tunggu keputusan SPM dan buku yang ada semua dah baca (masa tu koleksi buku belum bertimbun lagi), bagitau ayah nak pergi beli Reader's Digest di Kota Bharu. Masa tu ayah marah-marah sebab ayah ada kerja kena siapkan malam tu, tapi ayah turutkan jugak. Anis pun baca lah surah ni kuat-kuat atas motosikal untuk melayan kesedihan sebab kena marah. Ayah anis bekeng tau hehe. (Kalau naik moto, biasanya suara orang belakang tak dengar sebab deru angin yang sama kuat)

Masa lain, dulu pernah jatuh motor waktu hujan baru reda (jalan licin) depan stadium sayyidina hamzah uia, dan habis basah tudung sebab darah banyak. Masa tu, anis tak tahu darah tu dari kepala ke dari mana huu, jadi sangat risau. Jadi, perkara pertama yang dibuat ialah baca ayat-ayat awal surah al waqiah untuk uji ingatan. Alhamdulillah, ingat. Terima kasih Ya Allah. Rupanya darah banyak tu dari kening bukan dari kepala.

Sekarang ni, anis yakin banyak urusan yang Allah mudahkan berkat amalan ini. Terima kasih Ya Rahman. Alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah.

Selamat beramal.

anispauzi,

1 Muharram 1439H

Hujan

anispauzi Monday, September 18, 2017

Hari ni hujan. Tak berhenti dari tengah hari. Masih hujan lagi ni.

Doa waktu hujan,
" Allahumma soyyiban nafi'a "
Ya Allah, jadikanlah hujan ini hujan yang bermanfaat.

Siapa suka hujan?
Ya Allah, kalau hujan waktu Subuh@pagi-pagi, mesti rasa sayu sendu sikit. Sebab teringat bau-bauan hujan waktu sekolah, naik bas @ van sekolah berebut-rebut, belajar dalam kelas pun nyaman je sebab sejuk hehehe

Bila dah besar ni, kalau hujan, cepat je terlintas kenangan-kenangan masa belajar manis dan tak manis. Hehe. Banyak yang manis je sepanjang belajar di uia ni. Yang tak manis sebab kena struggle buat research paper dan analisis keputusan kajian. Gitu je la.

Dulu, masa belajar, anis suka sangat baca buku teks. Biasanya anis baca buku teks ni waktu malam. Waktu hujan pun best jugak, sambil-sambil minum air savanah @ radix. Allah.. Rindunya. Buku cerita pun baca jugak. Pinjam dari library. Student master boleh pinjam sampai 20 buku. Banyak kan. Dan bila dah pinjam, anis akan renew sampai la dah tak boleh renew. Kalau tak silap, boleh renew 2 kali. Dan, banyak kali juga kena bayar denda sebab lambat hantar buku + yang paling teruk kena bayar denda buku hilang. Masa tu bawak balik buku Conan Doyle - Sherlock Holmes, tercicir atas bas balik kampung.

Alamak, tiba-tiba pulak cerita pasal buku. Maafin.
Anis ada satu blog khas untuk cerita pasal buku, jadi kat sini tak banyak book review yang anis buat.

Atau, waktu hujan ni tidur la paling best hehe

Sebab tu kot Tere Liye tulis buku tajuk Hujan, sebab di sebalik hujan ni ada kisah-kisah tersendiri :)

hujan yang turun bagaikan mutiara

anispauzi,
baitussolehah,BS

Puisi Buat Orang Merindu

anispauzi Thursday, September 14, 2017

Orang-orang yang merindu, namun tetap menjaga kehormatan perasaannya, takut sekali berbuat dosa, memilih senyap, terus memperbaiki diri hingga waktu memberikan khabar baik.

Boleh jadi doa-doanya menguntai tangga yang indah hingga ke langit.

Kalaupun tidak dengan yang dirindukan, boleh jadi diganti dengan yang lebih baik.

-Tere Liye

Melaka School Trip

anispauzi Wednesday, September 13, 2017

So, i was selected to accompany Year 4 students for their annual trip. Destination; Malacca. Actually, this is my fourth time and i was not really keen to go hehe. Astaghfirullah.

We departed from school at 8a.m, stopped for toilet 15 minutes and arrived at our first stop, Kilang Koko Minda, Merlimau at 11.15a.m. They showed the production line, packaging and entertained us with slide shows and cocoa drinks 😋

packing into sachets

We proceed to Masjid Selat Melaka for Jamak Takdim Zohor and Asar and had a delayed lunch there. The caterer's suddenly got a heart attack and the boss called for Uber and took some time. We sat under trees shade and crows everywhere. While eating, a female student got shocked, a crow just landed its waste on her hand and food. What a drama. Its lucky we have extra food.

10 minutes before 3 p.m, we moved to the next stop at Rumah Terbalik. I was a bit 'bersungguh' to see the upside down house. And, here they are! Check the photos of my students. We're only allowed 30 minutes inside. The place is like a house, all being upside down. I was startled when we first entered, the staff told, " Okay, this is how you should take the photos.. Alright, you may start now 😅".

did it look real to you??

wow. the trishaw parked good there :D

Next, Menara Taming Sari. I decided not to follow them into the 'spinning wheel', because i already had once. But, the other teachers said, all free (already paid) so i went. I tell you, once is enough. It was boring but it's worth the ticket price if you go for the first time. We were separated into two groups, girls team went first.

Menara Taming Sari done. It was 5p.m. Then, we walked to A Famosa City, took some photos, bought souvenirs and left. Oh, two students in another group(we walked in groups led by a teacher) went missing and the teacher in charge was furious 😱 At last, there they were!

Last, we went to a market nearby A Famosa to buy additional souvenirs 😅 I just bought a shirt for kid and some kerepek.

at souvenirs coach near A Famosa

At about 630 p.m, we boarded the bus again heading back home. All were exhausted and..hungry. Teachers distributed bread and mineral water for students before we stop at R&R for dinner and solat.

We prayed and had dinner at R&R Seremban at 8.30pm and was there for an hour before we proceed home. We arrived at Al Huda's school compound at 11 p.m alhamdulillah 😊

12th September 2017

LGBT

anispauzi Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Today, I have a one day workshop on LGBT. Two speakers were invited, one teaching on the subject at uni and the other one is in the field himself.

L - Lesbian
G - Gay
B - Bisexual
T - Transgender

I rarely took part in knowing more about this group before, only get the surface information on who are they like.

And, surviving a day workshop on this, my eyes opened big and wide realising the ugly and heartbreaking truth in our community.

Theres a lot more to be done and many more dakwah methods to be explored. Among the things that i can share;

- We have to treat the root cause of them being LGBT
- One people having this issue cannot be generalised, because their reasons differed and has to be handled gently and in-person
- Identifying the patterns at a young age
- Avoid judging instead give support and help

This is not a branch issue, it is a big one 😞

Few of the reasons i could mention;
- Rooted from family problem, less affection
- Friends' influence
- Financial problem
- Sexual abuse

I benefited a lot from today's discussion and realised many more jobs awaiting the dua't.

May Allah helps us.

Astana Alhambra, TTDI

9/9/2017

15 hours trip is no joke

anispauzi Tuesday, September 05, 2017

I left home at 1.30 p.m in the rain, arrived about 10 minutes later and immediately prayed Jama' Takdim Zuhur and 'Asr at surau.

It was third day of Eidul Adha. My bus departed at 2 p.m from Kota Bharu. It was unusual for me and first time boarding a 2 p.m bus.

The traffic was really slow and sometimes static.The driver said that we might reach destination at Fajr. I dont believe him, at first. It took us about 5 hours to reach Kuala Krai (normal is 2 hours) and another 5 crazy hours to reach Gua Musang (KB-GM normal time is 3hrs max). So, total hours from KB-GM is 10 hrs, 2pm-12a.m.

It was a long , tiring journey. Days before, i thought to myself , look i'll be the earliest to arrive at the house, i should ask for a friend to come and stay with me at night. (Since i took 2p.m bus). Scared. I was sure that i'll arrive according to the schedule. I even told mom if i arrived early, i might just slept at TBS since got no one at home yet and she snapped me saying things like i better sleep at the house. I also planned for activities on Monday (public holiday) + where to eat lunch 😂

At 3.40 pm, the bus stopped at Petron and i went to Treats to buy mineral water. It was a long queue and guess what.. The bus left without me! 😨
But luckily enough it stopped when maybe another passenger spotted me walking nervously towards the bus. Thank you 🤕

At 5.30 pm, we stopped for 'Asr prayer at a small surau by the roadside. Many cars also stopped for prayer and some fresh air.

Later on, the co-driver switched on the television and i was like.. "Why i didnt see there's a tv right in front of me?" 😑 Pirates of Carribean lasted for more than 2 hours before many of us dozed off for the sixteenth time 😅

I seated in the most front seat (behind the driver) with a cute pregnant sister beside. Relieved because most of the passengers were of opposite sex. All seats next to me (behind, to the left) were males and i was uncomfortable i couldnt sleep all evening. Its good that i brought a mini old story book, The Secrets of The Crow Mountain. Criteria for book-to-read-on-the-bus must be light and enjoyable. Thats it.

When its getting darker and seemed like everybody else was asleep, i slowly closed my eyes and tried to have a good sleep. It was only 10 p.m but there's no chit chatting sound since we departed 8 hours before 😅

Another good reason i must close the eyes; couldnt stand watching the driver drove that fast and furious, i better sleep and do not see.

To be continued.

Fastaqim

Surah al Waqi'ah

Hujan

Puisi Buat Orang Merindu

Melaka School Trip

LGBT

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