Bismillah. Alhamdulillah. This is a delayed post over two months already.
I intended earlier on to write a post on my birthday, July 30th but you know works kept flooding and i dont find a suitable time plus mood to write. Just so you know, i write here more frequently - kakdikbaik , my blog on books.
First, it's already September- towards end of the year and yeah, many things happened in between until now. This post is specially dedicated to remind me of the past 27 years I've been living as God's servant on earth.
Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.
I am forever grateful to Allah for making it to this age and I believe time will mature you enough to live a content life and always be good. Yup.
At this phase of age, I am bombarded with many questions and I planned many things as well. I wanted to believe that I am here today for all the things Allah has planned for me.
I learnt a lot from life experiences and lessons from surrounding people. I really do. I also tell myself repeatedly only the positive things. I allow myself to feel sad, angry or disappointed but above all, I have Allah beside me. If you remember that, you will just keep going no matter what.
Life is hard. It's true. So, we have to learn to face it successfully. It takes courage and positive mind :D
What is meant for you will not miss you and what misses you is not meant for you - Imam as Syafiee
Hatiku tenang kerana tahu rezekiku tidak akan diambil orang - Imam Hasan al Basri
Currently, working as a teacher; I am still far from my ambition of pursuing my study at PhD level. I started the process early last year and already received the offer letter for September 2018 intake (Semester I). I even attended the registration day but I didnt register. Why? Because I cant afford the semester fees totalling RM4K per sem. The registration fee is still affordable not the semester fees though hehe. One semester is four months only equals to RM1K per month. I told myself i will lost a lot of weight if I enrolled hahaha. Pray for me that Allah ease the way amiin. I am planning to write on gold, but it is still subjected to availability of data and many other considerations.
Did I enjoy being a teacher?
Oh yes, I do! That feeling when you teach innocent kids are priceless. I will always miss them. I have that great feeling that anything I read, watched or heard I got to share the knowledge with those little humans. I love conveying the messages and i think they loved it too or maybe haha. Only if i could capture their expression when i am explaining something hahah. I really treasure the moment. Of course, any workplace has its ups and downs but yeah, that is life. You cant sit all on smooth lanes, you may find it bumpy somewhere.
I received a lot of questions when I will be working in line with my study field which is finance. I am as much curious as those asking haha. I still wanted to work in a Islamic bank, have a handful of experience and all. I figured out myself, if one day I dont have the opportunity then I would go through the academic line as a Shariah Advisor kiki inshaAllah.
I also tried to register for professional certs. I found out that it took about 3 years to complete the whole module. Emm, that's long time. We'll see how.
Marriage? I suppose this year is the year that i got that question a lot - from relatives but not once from my parents alhamdulillah. The years before, people were only interested in my studies - i also dont know why haha
Okay actually i choose to not wait for jodoh to come rolling to me nor be sad in waiting. Nope. I choose to not wait for things to happen but to engage in the present time and yeah, living my life. At the same time, not to rush things just because you see your friends got married. Sometimes, we have to believe in Allah's plan and most imprtantly to learn to trust it. Only then, we will feel at peace with ourselves. You should too. InshaAllah.
Marriage is a long term commitment and you cant easily backed out. It involves many parties as well. This is not saying to be too choosy, nope but praying to Allah to select the best for you. Wow. I sound like an ustazah already hahaha
Okay, let me share a piece of beautiful prayer.
Allahumma sakkhirli zaujan solihan yakhtibuni wayatazzawaju bi wayakunu sohiban li fiddunya wal jannah - i tried to find the Arabic type but found none, so this will do okayy
(O Allah, choose me a good husband who will propose me, and marry me, and be my friend in the dunya wal jannah)
Oh yeah, as for now I am an actively promoting for people to save gold as part of their savings plan - Public Gold. I also sell scarves for a living hihi - Bawal NUQ. You may reached me through my FB for details. Ops terpromot pulak.
At this age, I valued my parents a huge lot. huhu. I loved them with all my hearts. I frequently told my kids at school how much their parents love them just so they learn to appreciate their parents. I knew my parents face a lot to raise us all 6 siblings until now. Talking about them, deserved another post. I always feel that i had not been the best daughter to them huhu.
O Allah, please love both my parents as their love for me since i was small. Ameen.
I think I will end here. Today i spent all day at home, enjoying Laskar Pelangi.
I shared a lot on books on my other blog. Always full with emotions you know :p
Please do visit if you like it too :)
Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah for this 27 years.
anispauzi
what's meant to be will always find a way :D
Wassalam :)
